It may seem like a short amount of time but to me this last seven weeks has been massive. While the start to this year was the worst moment of my entire life, loosing Gav has motivated me into doing something positive.
I am determined to make something positive out of this year and our loss. Gavin wouldn’t want us to be moping around and crying – that’s true – but I think that request is a little too hard to execute. The loss we are feeling is too great to “pull ourself together and get on with it” so I am trying to do at least one thing positive.
My relationship with food is an emotional one. Every good or bad thing that has happened in my life has been supported with food. I love to eat, I love food! So to focus on cutting out those things I love and finding healthy replacements has not been easy. I have slipped and made bad choices, but this time I have a focus for my will power. Instead of throwing myself into a 12″ pizza for comfort I am reminding myself of how much harder Gav had to fight.
As I start another week my will power is refreshed with this loss. We had a couple of tricky moments this week having such a good loss will hopefully prevent any from happening this week.
I have found a new love of stir fry veg with rice so a new staple with spicy chicken!! More of this please! Also as I am now doing Slimming World I can have a couple of guilt free treats …. Hello Freddo bars 😍😍😍
Wish me luck into week 8 ….. Two stone down now!!